Good morning my perfect wholesome IKEA life.

Aaah yes waking up before the clock sure makes me feel rested. And after having such a wholesome weekend of great sex, ikea furniture and "The count of Monte cristo" video I feel acomplised.
My boyfriend and I just got sick of our appartment and went to Ikea and bought "möbler". Seeing him take charge of things just really turned me on and not to mention seeing him lifting and putting together heavy furniture. Yes I am a princess and I want to be taken care of ( but dont even try to tell me what to do), and I have my prince and my castel....lucky me.

Some people may find it interesting that BJÖRK (yes, the singer) has recently started working out here at the gym were I work. She is quite modest and unglamourus to be here in this old rundown gym. She is really pretty in person in a normal kinda "petit" way and is really well mannerd too, not at all what you exspect from a STAR.
Any ways thought it was interesting....or not.

It was extaclly fun last friday though I would NOT recomend Dj felix da housecat, he sucks bigtime and I dont care if hes the 4th higest paid Dj ever or something. ALL THE ICELANDIC DJ´S WERE MUCH BETTER. Go Iceland go. I ve got partyfever...or at least a partycold >_ ^

PS I had the highest score at the last test in my Photoshop class 9,4 (out of 10) I feel proud of myself..strange feeling. I never did well in school untill now and its so fullfilling. happy happy joy joy.

Today is my second lucky day or at least I hope so. I choose my lucky number 11 when I was very young about 8 or 9 years and it has brought my luck many times. so now is the 1/11 and Electro lux (Dj felix Housecat from usa is dj´ing) is to night so I think Ill go out partying. I just have to be careful not to go overboard like last saturday.
Ofcourse my luckiest day of the year is 11/11 wich is not so very far away.

This halloween stuff is every where even though we do not celibrate it here in Iceland...I love costumes and I think we are missing out.

Theres so much talk lately about child abuse and womens rights and peace on earth. I feel its overwhelming we got so many problems here on earth and I really think we are in hell. Yes the earth is hell and hopefully when we die we go to heaven!. Ive read many books about the suffering of man and I am a former victim of child abuse. so I should know..shouldnt I.
God Im so depressed and spitefull right now and I doubt every human beeings motives. I should be a hermit somewhere up in the mountains where I woulndt bother anyone.

I partyed last saturday...was really strung out on sunday and am still not balancing right this morning.

My head is filled with paranoid ideas and Im feeling antisocial. I feel like everyone dislikes me. I feel like im wearing a big fake smile just because you should "smile upon the world so the world will smile upon you". But my smile is fake and so the world must give me fake smiles back?. Why do I even try to be likeble I should just frown and say fuck you to everyone, god im childish and ignorant right now aint I.

I just had the strangest call, some really drugged up guy just called me, slurring my name and asking whos! "my name here" is this.
I told him he was calling some other xxx but he wanted to know wich xxx I was. I hanged up. yukk

I have been PMSing like crazy and I have the worst period pains...I just want to go home to my hotwaterbottle and have some alchohol and painkillers in my body now....and its only 7 o´clock in the morning.

I just had enough and over that:

Yesterday I just fell compleatly hopeless that anything in my life would be right or clean for that matter. I did not go to school or do anything cause I fellt compleatly powerless against the mess that my life is. Besides from all the emotional stuff my house looks like a place where a bum lives. The washing up has not been done in over 4 weeks, I cant remeber when the floor was last mopped, the turtle tank was starting to mold and was the deep color of reddish brown, the bed has not been changed for over 4 weeks too, our refridgerator has its own living organizasion inside it, and if that was not enough a visiting dog threw up on my pillow. I feel like a failiure and a complete slob.
Well I fixed some of these things last night of course with a little help from my boyfriend but the place still looks like a dirty dump.

Im really tierd of my boyfrend I have no energy left to fight every day.....Im thinking a brake would do us good.

If I met God I would ask her/It/him:

-Why me?
-Can I get a break in life once in awhile?
-What is the best diet?
-Is war, deseases, hungerdeaths and plagues really nessesary?
-Will I be let into heven next time I die, or do I have to live more lifes here in hell(earth)?
-Why do I irritate people so much?
-Am I a good pearson?

At this timepoint of my life:

- Im reading "Becoming madame Mao" by Anchee Min. Great book and my favorite line from it so far is:
"They cant see the trouble mountain because they are on it".

-I hate drawing boxes in art class at school.

- Last movie I watched was Saltonsea wich was ok. It was about speed adictives and revenge of lost love...good combo and Val kilmer looks kind of good with a mohawk....but better as Jim Morrisson.



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Strange thoughts in my head at night.

Ive taken up the habbit to sleep with the covers over my head because of the cold here in Iceland...its just totally comforting, warm and dark. But my boyfriend is freaking out about it saying I can suffocate in my sleep or the dog wont see me and lay on my face and kill me. So last night I lay a wake and thought about it and concidering the cold here I think this would be a nice escape and frankly I was never meant to be born. just kidding or am I ?.

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Im here again...

Ive been so busy lately so here are some updates

-got a new phone YAY #ericson burn in hell# Ive got a sparkling new nokia with the ugliest fonts Ive ever seen and theyre not gonna release new fonts for a month...oh well maby brown and yellow are in fashion now.

-My birthday was on the 1of oktober. I got a few presents and celebrated on saturday.

-Im still working in the bitches lair and yes I am quitting but Im lazy looking for a new job but eventually I will drag my ass around town begging someone to hire me. Any ways there are 2 months left of my contract so plenty of time.

-school is great, I had the third highest score on the first test.

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WORKING HERE IS HELL:

Ive never had such a bitchy boss and I never knew that there were such imature people. The last time I posted I was crying at work waiting to get to the hospital, my boss said she would not come until 9 a clock, but then she made me and my boyfriend wait untill 10:30. And now it seems she is mad at me and slagging my name through the companys journal. I cant wait to quitt here.

Will this never end...

I cryed at work just now, theres something really wrong with my foot and I need to go to the hospital. I went to work anyway and opend up the place thinking I could do it and then go to the hospital. The pain just got worse and I cant fit into my shoes so I called my boss but she got really angry and just started screaming at me about her own problems. It was just to much so I started crying here at work.

Im trying so hard to look at the bright sight of things but the buzzzz sound of the three work iceboxes are drowning all happy thoughts out. Plus I just fixed a broken washing machine and Im supposed to be a receptionist!!!

Well its a good thing Im quitting this job, Its all good and all the bad thoughts can just fuck off.

There are new people moving in to the cellar in my house, they got kids. I dont like kids much and I think people should need permission of all the house owners to move in with them. I needed one for my dog. Yes Im a kidnazi but Im really afraid the kid is going to be afraid of my dog, so my dog cant run free in MY garden. Maby my dog will just eat the little bugger and I will get some peace.

These are strange days....

I quit my job on friday and Im feeling real good about it, I´ve never should have started here in the first place, cause I had bad vibes comming from there the minute I stepped in there. I should listen to my instinct more.

I went clubbing really hard, a little to hard on saturday and ended up having the strangest sunday. Im thinking of taking a break from partying.

Im really tired today...so hard to wake up.

Theres more trouble at work and Im getting so sick of this. My boss is continually lying to me and she has lost all my trust.
This time she has given the new girls a higer wage than Im getting and Ive worked here all summer. She really must dislike me and I dont know for what because Im a really good worker, Ive never been sick , I always do what is exspected of me and then some and Ive only been late once!!! Bleeehhh

On the goodside though Im doing really well in school.

See what Care Bear you are.


See what Care Bear you are.

I have such a cold and I thought I was getting better. Oh well God must be punnishing me for stealing that half a shampobottle.

Anyways... Im going shopping today with my younger sister(12). Im buying her a dress for the Roseball. Its her birthday present.
Im thinking of buying something for myself, but everytime I see something that I like I feel like I dont deserve it. well I havent got much money anyways.
I went shopping with my boyfriend on sunday, we were going to buy my some stuff for winter, God knows I need everything, but we ended buying him a shirt instead and nothing for me. I just wish he would incourage me to dress nicely and would just generally bother, like i do for him. I tried to act as he does when hes looking for clothes but I like too much to make him happy so end up getting involved with every little detail, size , color ect...

If I think about it I dont think he bothers at all anymore, I think he does´nt even read this blog. I would be all over his to see what was going on with him. How can two people be so close and yet so far appart. Maby its all over, I mean if you just dont bother anymore how can we go on. I love him truly, but this is getting tierd.

I miss the times when I had friends, I miss laughing over something stupid we had done. I havent had a friend in a long time, and most of the time im more than okey with that. I´ve always been a loner and Im a lousy friend when I have one. Its just that I hate talking on the phone or just talking in general.

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Well havent I been living an interesting life lately....!

I have been a litle sick and I just slept this whole weekend, My boyfriend was very unsymphathetic and he was the one who gave me this litle flu. Apparantly he thought I wasnt as sick as he and that I was a total dramaqueen. Well okey I wasnt as sick as him but hey I have been nursing him for the whole week and now I wanted a little TLC instead of watching him play fucking warcraft 24/7.

Im thinking about my birthday thats coming up soon, I think my boyfriend will screw this one up too, he has never planned anything on my birthday and I always go all out on his to make him feel special. Ive given him a surprice party, a trip to London, out to dinner at a swanky restaurant, and thats not counting the presents. Well its what they say "give without exspecting something in return" or something???

So now Im at work and not getting any better even though Im on my second cup of pepperment tea.

Well still alive and kicking....I woke up this morning to the uncontrolable urge to hear the song from "Fame"...Fame, I want to live forever, I want to learn how to fly...la la la la.ohh yeah.

Im feeling a litle better now and Im going back to school and that makes me extreamly happy. I feel that now for a loong time that I have something to focus on in my future. I was gonna chicken out of this but my superboyfriend changed my mind and Im etearnally greatful. Thank you so much.

And speaking of great boyfriends, mine just called and asked me out to dinner at one of the most exspensive restaurants in town...X X X I feel like a queen.

As for jobmatters...Im not compleatly happy but I have to stay here if I wanna go in school....so Ill just bend over!!!!

I did not mean you ...I love you ...youre always beautyfull and kind. You know who you are.

I felt ugly and evil yesterday......actually I felt that everyone was evil and ugly. Its just that the atmosphere here at work is rapidly changing into somthing dark and ugly. I hate conflicts and I would love for this to be over. I was so relived when my work day was over and I was so exhausted when I got home I just cried and slept all day.

Then my brother (wich I havent spoken to for over a year) suddenly decides to buy a computer, and suddenly decides to call my boyfriend to help him buy a computer, and my boyfriend suddenly decides to invite him home to do this!. But it wasnt as ackward as I thought it would be.
My brother is in AA, wich I find amusing, dont get me wrong I support the AA but everyone there is a judgemental God fanatic.

I suck at this htlm thingy

It is not often you want to Party at 7 a clock in the morning in the middel of the week...but the ravemusic in one of the classes here is giving me vibes. Maby it was the "Ibiza uncoverd show" last night too.

I just really really want to go on a holliday.....I miss spain and the sun. Fuck Iceland.

Hello dear world....or anybody who has stumbled onto my ramblings.

I´m 25 / f / Iceland ...no sorry im 23 years old...silly me. Well anyways I work as a receptionist at a gym and Ive noticed this is the way to spend some time while I work.

I feel poor because:

-I only got 2 panths(both black) and one is ripping apart at the seams.
-I walk everywhere...the bus is to exspensive.
-My breakfast and lunch is a small bag of cheerios, no milk.
-I cant go on vacation to a warmer climate this year.

Sometimes I feel that everyones out to get me and that I have a "please kick me down" sign on my back. This time its my boss, she hierd me for much higer wages than I am getting and when I threatend to quit she promised me the same wages again and yesterday she offers me just a small part off the sum we agreed on. I wish there was a law against this...any ways Im not gonna back down now, Maby I´ll have to find another job but hell no Im not backing down.