Little miss bipolar me? Im up, im down and all I can say is I dont know. Well life is confusing and strange but also exciting and busy since my breakup...ok ok I was dumped. I just hate being so strong and weak at the same time...
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Here are my boobies... I got this pretty butterfly tattoo on fridaynight.
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My friends just had a boy, I feel so proud of them. Cant wait to visit them and see the little guy.
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I miss it so much
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God Ive been a real hysteric biach today...
I dreamt that the ex had cheated on me after seeing he had a new friend(a girl)on his messenger last night. He's been real nice about it thoughand Im reconcidering the who hurts who, I mean hes been so supportive and kind to me the last few days.Does that make sence?
Anyways going out-meeting new people-trying to get on

This blog is getting very unread...?

How exciting my life is, oh well guess people have more with their time to do than read my incoherent ramblings.

Anyhoo saturdaynight was ok, I mean I had fun and all but the right kind of music was missing and I really don't know how to be a single party gal! I don't know how to act when guys hit on me!

The ex and I have decided to become friends, he has apologized for his behavior but he still feels like a stranger to me. That's just something I have to work out for my self. But maybe its good that I feel that way because I loved him when I knew who he was and I certainly do not love this stranger. So I think I handling it pretty well these last few days besides a few mistakes.

The beat goes on
ever so strong....
 
Yes most of my pain has gone away, I have a plan for the future and I've got a secret.
Some one has made my week just by calling out my name???
 
Tonight is going to be awesome, I talked to this girl at work which I hardly know and she has invited me to go party hopping with her and her mates tonight.

Sorry to be so secretive, maybe more later!

P.s. Benidorm was great, and Robbie Rivera at KU was fucking awesome

 

This will be my last blogentry....

How can true love turn so wrong and how can I stop loving him, I dont think I can but Ive found ways to numb the pain a little. For 6 years of my life I gave him my all and suddenly now he does not love me and does everything he can too hurt me more. Some one once warned me "he is never happy unless your unhappy"!

As soon as I can Im moving far far away and I hope I will have the good sence of never falling in love again.

The worst thing Ive lost everything else too, my art, my music, the chance to go too school, my friends, my home, my dog, my plans,

.....these are the days I wish I were dead and buried