Behind the next corner
no one knows what lies
one step closer
to fun and butterflies???

Partygirl

Friday: Spent the evening cuddled up to Carebear in front of the TV, I had hard time not going out to party but I soothed the urge with a glass of white wine. Should I be in therapy? ;)

Saturday: Went to a party and then to a club... same shit, different day!

Sunday: In my sleepless state I watched a lot of TV and ate frozen foods and candy all day. I watched "The Butterfly Effect" again. Its my all time favorite movie and every time I watch it It has this tremendous effect on me. I even feel like the characters are familiar friends... yes I'm utterly insane.

Today: Nice day, sun is shining and I'm off early from work and now I'm going swimming to get that nasty food of me tthat I ate yesterday, who knows I might even get a tanline while I'm at it :)

Still funny after 5 years...

CareBear Cutie

Feelings feelings feelings
flowing over me
crowding all my senses
controlling what I say and see!

Falling falling falling
faster, harder everyday
Wishing for a softer landing
a place where I could stay!


Well I've decided not to celebrate my birthday in the manor of partying but I'm going to take the day of work and have a little ME ME ME day. Anyways I'm invited to another birthdayparty the second of October, I'm just gonna party twice as hard then.

Msn chat?

Bjay the Bear: Þú ert líka skrítinn
Bjay the Bear: -n
chillerthrilleroverkiller: nei þú hefur rétt fyrir þér, ég er ekki búin að klára aðgerðina
Bjay the Bear: Já ég veit.
Bjay the Bear: En það er samt bara þegar að þú ert full
Bjay the Bear: eða fullur / Evur..
chillerthrilleroverkiller: oh god
chillerthrilleroverkiller: dont remind me
Bjay the Bear: haha
Bjay the Bear: OK
chillerthrilleroverkiller: ha ha
Bjay the Bear: ég skal ekki
chillerthrilleroverkiller: ég var búin að gleyma þessur

Friday: I went out with Carebear and got really drunk, made a real ass out of myself thinking I was protecting the honor of friend. Carebear thought it was cute though but I think he's just being sweet.

Saturday: Woke up and couldn't decide if I had a hangover or not. Went to vistit my mom and my sisters in the country.

Sunday: Spent the day being pampered by my wonderful mom. Took a bus home and met the ex Bf. I still wonder if things can ever be normal between us, I feel like its not a mandatory thing to forgive and forget but I'm still so goddamned hurt by him. Then Carebear came over with chocolate and his cute grin and everything becomes good again.

Today: Work, and I'm going to start studying for my driverslicence, then I'm going to apply for a part time job at a tanning salon. Wish me luck.

Search for
it...
myself
an identity.

Afraid of what I've become:
without selfknowledge
and false selflove
aren't we all just stardust?

I'm waiting for my friend to pick me up, I'm taking all my empty beer bottles and cans to the recyclesplacethingy, Yes I'm almost broke :( Then were going to plan our birthdays wich are only a few days apart... I hope we can figure something out.
God I'm so tired and empty now... I need a life less ordinary?

Thank you CareBare for the mischevious smile you put on my face all day at work. ;) Yet again monday, but the memories of my weekend adventures keep me smiling. Even though friday was tough it turned out ok, you win some-you lose some! Now I have to find a DJ and a place to hold my birthdayparty, I want to remember my last birthday in Iceland. :)

Added a few pictures from Benidorm. http://community.webshots.com/album/185640332LvfBRs Ive been at the mall shopping for three birthday presents and 1 babygift, its a good thing someone remembers my Bday! Friday to morow, and of course I will go out and party but Im getting fed up with all the lousy mingy clubs here in Iceland. I need a big dancefloor filled with people and loud spinechilling house music... mmmmmmm yeah

Some times terrible things happen out of shear stupidity! But I have to be strong and go on as if nothing ever happend. I have to forgive (myself and others) and forget but also learn from my mistakes. Ive had so much help and support from my new friend and I owe her so much. If it wasn´t for her I would probably be in a insaneasylum... Thank you so much Erla

Every road back
has been blokced
and all the backdoors
have been locked...

No more words
no more acts

Never again will love bind me

Every thought and every plan leads to saturday night, Even though Im not a big fan of Dom & Roland (not yet at least) I am a big fan of oversize partys and crowded dancefloors. So saturdaynight here I come, I cant wait :) P.s Je adore Dior 

Svo leið á manneskjunar eymd
og alheimsins væli.
Tilfinningin orðin dauf og gleymd
með hamingju og bjartsýni ég mæli.

Ef allir mundu líta í eigin barm
og laga sinn hug og hjarta
við myndum líða minni harm
og eiga framtíðina bjarta.