The first blog of the new year....
I have behaved very very badly last few days and I almost ruined Christmas for Carebear. I cut of all my hair and broke everything in sight. I feel ashamed but I do not understand my actions. I almost feel like a helpless child in a fit of rage?
But now I have "fixed" my hair and thankfully my dearest husband still loves me and supports me, we also had a lot of help from my best friend and favorite son. I would be NOTHING with out you two. Thank you so much for everything.
Its New years night now and I do feel much optimistic for 2008 and I hope I can make up for all my mistakes. I hope I can make everyone happy and I hope I can loose all my extra weight. I am going to do EVERYTHING to get there. I have everything to win and nothing to lose if I just try harder, faster, stronger, better hehe.
But over all if you look at my life I am so lucky, loved and well cared for. And I do appreciate my husband, my daughter, family and friends. My home and my life's opportunities. I Just have to get out of my head, out of my weight and out of my past. And I promise I'll try harder because I don't want to lose my life and everything in it.
Anyways I love to love and being loved and thats whats really matters. Now I am going celebrating with my friends and drinking lots of bubbly. Love love love be with us all this year.
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